My Dearest Father

What was love 
Transformed into hatred
From you. 

I killed for you 
So you could have the world 
But you deserted me soon as 
You gained it all. 

I killed your dreams for me
A dream that would have been killed 
If I hadn’t drenched my hands 
in Blood. 

So now I take a path 
Filled with hatred for you –
You who deserted his son 
You who left me with pain 
In my heart. 

You deserted me who 
took you to the throne. 

How did I get here?
When the throne which 
You coveted I gave you.

How did I get here
To a place where I dream 
of the evil I could do? 
To a place where dreams of more bloodshed 
cloud my eyes? 

You deserted me 
Dearest father 
And left me to figure out life 
For myself. 

You hunted me 
Father – when you 
Could have guided me. 

You left me 
Clinging to pleasures 
Of the World to 
Heal the pain caused by 
You. 

And now, with blood flowing
On your throne, you say
You did your best.


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